Wednesday, May 30, 2012

the trial that doesn't end...


Long suffering. 
I've thought a lot about this recently. The same struggle that surfaces time and time again. The long term health problem, the missing of loved ones, the same parenting issue over and over, the financial hardship that has no end in sight,  the spiritual battle that you keep wrestling with. 

It can be a dark lonely place. Feelings so deep and personal it's hard to even share with others. Believing God's promises are true and having faith that he's there carrying you through, yet not always feeling it. Actually, at times wondering where God is in the midst. I think at times I can't take anymore. God promises not to give us more than we can handle, but it feels like it's too much. 

Yet, when I think I have nothing left he gives me the strength to face another day and carry me through the storm.

I look back at these extremely dark times and see God stripping me. Taking all the things away that hinder me from knowing his love and grace in my life.  God is showing me that I do nothing apart from his strength and grace. 

These are the building blocks of my faith. I see and taste his promises are true. He loves me with the most beautiful patient love and in turn teaches me to love with the same patience and steadfastness. I walk away knowing my Savior in a more intimate way than before.

3 comments:

Katherine~ said...

I felt a certain kinship in your words, "Feelings so deep and personal it's hard to even share with others." I am confident that these dark times will some day become precious to you in ways you can't appreciate yet. Hold fast.

Michelle Elkins AKA Mickey said...

needed to read this. Sometimes I feel alone in these times as well. Stay strong!

Rebekah said...

Adding this to things to take before the Throne.

`Rebekah

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