Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Changing Seasons...

You may have noticed a name change. I needed something new after Amelia was born. I thought and thought, but not being the most creative person didn't come up with anything. 
I thought a lot about our life, our family, and why I blog and changing seasons just came to mind. 
I like it because I love the changing of seasons. 
I love seeing God's creativity in each season. 
I like it because I feel like we're constantly in a new season with our family.
I like it because this blog documents all those changing seasons. 
So there you have it...Changing Seasons.
(spring is my favorite)
We've hit the six week mark. I've always thought this was a big milestone and led into the next stage with my babies. 
They're smiling and cooing.
They're on a good schedule.
They're not sleeping all the time. 
And they're moving out of being a newborn. (I hate that part. Everytime I rock Amelia I wish time would stop. I just love the newborn stage. who are we kidding I haven't found a stage I didn't love.)
It's usually a big milestone for me too. 
I physically feel much better. The soreness and aches and pains are mostly gone. 
Although I can't fit into prepregnancy clothes there are signs that I'll get my body back someday. 
And I've sort of gotten into a the rythm of three. It might include us still in our pajama's at the end of the day and living on the bed so I can take care of all three while I nurse. But it's a rythm and it's working. 
 (she loves to count Amelia's toes.)

Unfortunately, my back is still hurting. The hormones are still raging. (Does anyone else get really emotional when they nurse? Cause I fight back tears the whole time.) 
I go from goosebumps to dripping sweat in about .5 seconds. (making me wash my sheets daily) 
And I'm still addicted to ice. We make a Sonic run weekly to pick up big bags of ice.

I've written before about how much I adore being a wife and mama. This is my favorite thing to do in the whole world. But to be completely honest I've struggled a little lately. I wrestle with never wanting my kids to grow up and loving every second of this time and wanting...
Uninterrupted sleep.
An uninterrupted shower...(or even being able to go to the bathroom by myself.)
Uninterrupted devotions.
Or an uninterrupted conversation with Caleb.
 (she inturrupted my devotions so she could do them too. I looked over and she'd gotten on her knees to pray.)
I'm continually learning. Learing to lay my desires down and serve selflessly. That's what this stage takes. Knowing that my kids needs might come before my need of a full nights sleep or a shower. I'm constantly reminded that this is what God's called me to and he's giving me the strength to do the tasks and enjoy it. I'm learning to stop moving from one thing on my to do list to the next and color with Elijah.

I'm learning to stop seeing things as inturruptions. Instead see them as what God's ordained for that day.
(Elijah doing yoga with me.)

I'm learing to listen to my Elijah and Vanessa talk during breakfast together and learn a little more about them.

I'm learning to let things go.
(Elijah and I running hand in hand in the rain to get the mail.)
 Even though there are some long days I know I'm going to miss this time.


katygirl said...

Love this post! I think the name is great!! I can't believe how big the kids look. They are so cute.

Rebekah said...

Praying for you!

Sharstin said...

i always love reading your posts-beautiful and honest~ such a pretty family

Kirra Sue said...

You're always such an encouragement Jess- thank you so much for always being so honest & pointing me back to Christ. I'm so blessed to call you friend! You're a wonderful mommy & I'm so thankful for all the ways you've already encouraged me on my own journey. Praying for total healing in your back. xo

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bandofbrothers said...

you are so lovely, inside and out.

i about died when i saw little nessa praying on her knees.

and then died again when lijah was doing a yoga pose.

funny funny stuff.

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