We had our 36 week appointment today. It was a big one. It was the appointment where we would see if our little girl had stopped growing or if we were in the clear for a healthy delivery.
Praise the Lord....we got the all clear! She is looking good. Her growth hasn't slowed at all and we're expecting a normal delivery. I can't tell you how excited I am. I've felt a little black cloud has followed me around since we found out there were complications with the pregnancy. It was a constant state of waiting and praying. Praying for mercy over our little girl. Waiting to see how the Lord was going to work.
I didn't want to get too excited. I kept myself guarded with such an uncertain future. I didn't take for granted a day that I wasn't on bedrest or a moment with Elijah and Vanessa knowing that we could be facing tough months ahead. I planned for the hardest, but hoped for the best. It was a hard hard balance to keep.
I'm amazed at God's graciousness to bring us this far. The cloud is gone and I'm feeling a little giddy at the thought of meeting our little girl. I have her clothes washed and put away. I've bought her coming home outfit and I'm writing in her baby book. I can't wait to feel her in my arms for the first time and I'm excited that (it seems) it will be without any wires or monitors. I'm seriously happy.
But, I have to say, that if things had turned out differently (and I know they still can) God would have been just as kind and faithful. He drew me to himself these last months. Many times He was the only one I could talk to about my fears and He was the one to carry me. I read many verses about waiting on the Lord and staying steadfast. He's taught me to quietly waiting on him and he will hold me. My quiet times with the Lord have been so precious to me. I'm thankful that he took us through this unknown so that I could draw close to him and know his character more.
I know many of you have prayed for us and I'm so grateful. Please continue to pray and hopefully we'll be meeting our little girl in just a few short weeks.