Wednesday, January 25, 2012

loving....missing...

i've been asked many times how we're adjusting to living in idaho. i'm happy to say it's gone smoother than i imagined. not that i imagined it going badly, i just thought it'd be hard than it's been. 


there are so many things we're loving...


the changing of seasons. 

clean air.

open skies.

no traffic. 

being near family.

our new church.

smaller town.

the way it's drawn Caleb and I closer.

having a house and a yard.

meeting new people.


how fast it feels like home.

 of course we're missing lots about california though. it's just hard leaving. i wish i could make these two worlds collide. but we're adjusting to life without...

in-n-out. our wastelines thank us.

being near the ocean. it still feels like we're forty minutes away.

family. okay, maybe not adjusting so well.

having a pool. this summer we're going to really miss it.

 familiarity. 

trader joe's. barely surviving. 

our friends. i try not to think about this one too much. my heart just aches.

trips up the coast. some of caleb and my best times together.

our church. seriously.

play dates. elijah is desperate. 


disneyland. i can't explain my deep love for this place. it's a little crazy.


mostly, we're really grateful. grateful to be where God's led us. grateful for answers after praying for direction for so long. grateful God comforts our hearts when we are struggling. grateful to see the Lord has a plan even when we don't see it or understand it. grateful we can trust him.

Friday, January 20, 2012

the perfect day...

Caleb and I were enjoying a quiet morning together, but was quickly interrupted by our two little ones. We all cuddled on the couch as Caleb and I finished our devotions. We were enjoying one another and oblivious to the outside world when I got up to fill a bottle and looked outside. Our first real snow. It was so perfect. 


We opened the front door and just watched the snow pouring down.

It snowed most of the day. Quickly the brown we'd been looking at for months was covered it white. It was beautiful. 
Caleb was able to come home a little early from work to play with the kids. We quickly dressed them  and went outside. 
Elijah fell right in and rolled around. 

This was Nay's first real snow. She thought it was good for eating.


We did snow angels...


snowball fights...


and a snowman.
Nay's hands were like ice, but she didn't care. Neither one wanted to come in.

We got warm by the fire and ate brownies. (elijah ate his in one bite)

It was the perfect day.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Evangelizing

 Caleb and I were reading one of our favorite devotionals, Morning and Evening and that particular night was about not wasting opportunities in your day to point others to Christ. I told him that sometimes I'm a little jealous of the interactions he has in the outside world. I spend my days with little ones that barely understand how to talk. 


Caleb on the other hand spends his days in a lot of adult conversation and many opportunities to share Christ. I love that for him and pray he doesn't waste it. 


But he reminded me of something. I spend my day with two little ones in desperate need of a Savior. I have all day long to point the souls I care about most to Jesus. What could be a better use of my time? It's easy to loose perspective, but I'm so thankful for a husband that points me back to truth. 


I want to be like Susanna Wesley who was willing to, "entirely devote twenty years of the prime of life in hopes to save the souls of my children." 
I see my purpose when I look at my babies.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Nay


My parents took Elijah for a sleep over. Of course we missed him terribly. 
(i know kind of silly since it was only one night, but our house just isn't the same without that boy.) 
But we loved our alone time with Nay. It's nice focusing one on one and soaking up time with our girl.  

 No cars, tractors, Lego's, or super hero costumes...
just dolls.


 She cried for Elijah a couple times, but I think deep down she kind of liked all the attention.
We love you Nay.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Super Hero's.


welcome to my world.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

33 weeks

At 33 weeks....
I could live on ice alone. I've never craved something this strong in a pregnancy. 

I don't feel overly emotional. I still have some irrational emotions that come out of no where, but not too bad. 

I'm a little overwhelmed with the thought of three three and under. 

I'm very uncomfortable. Everything in my body aches.


I'm very uncomfortable. Everything in my body aches.

The doctor says that things are looking fine, but problems could still come out in the next four weeks. I'm really trying to rest in the Lord, but I'll be so thankful when she's here and the wondering is gone.

I've struggled with knowing how to pray for this pregnancy. I want to pray with faith knowing God can do anything, while also trusting that his plan could look very different from ours.

I bought her coming home outfit and I'm anxious to hold a newborn again. 

I'm starting to feel some nesting coming on.

We have a name. Took us longer to find hers, but love calling her by it. 

I'm picturing a head full of dark hair, but I thought the same with Vanessa and she didn't have hair until about nine months ago.


Time has flown by this pregnancy.


Elijah and Vanessa love to lay their heads on my tummy and talk to their sister. She has no idea how loved she is already.

Love you sweet girl...can't wait till I can kiss all over your soft cheeks. (but don't come too soon.)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

interruptions


My days never seem to go as planned. 
I've been told it's the stage of life I'm in. 
(which I love)
But being pregnant with two little ones running around I never know what to expect. 
Being up multiple times through the night and waking up exhausted.
A teething toddler I just can't take anywhere cause she's in so much pain.
Discipline issues that take much longer to deal with than expected. 
Having too many contractions in a day and needing to lay down when it's time to get dinner on the table.


To be honest it's been hard for me. I like a plan and I don't like to wander far from it. Being married to Caleb has taught me a lot about being flexible and going with the flow, but I still have a long way to go. When things don't go as planned I tend to see the day as a waste. If I'm still in my pajama's at noon and nothing is accomplished on my to do list I think God isn't pleased with me. 
I know this is wrong thinking, but thoughts of earning  God's approval by what I accomplish can creep in without me realizing it. I know I can't earn anything from God. It's all a precious undeserved gift and his love is unchanging. I know he wants me to use my time wisely, but I also know he cares so much more about my attitude honoring him than about what I accomplish. 
I'm also reminded that my time is not my own. I need to wake up ready for whatever God brings to my day instead of seeing these things as interruptions. 
I love this quote from C.S. Lewis,
“The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one’s ‘own,’ or ‘real’ life.  The truth is of course that what one calls the interruptions are precisely one’s real life—the life God is sending one day by day; what one calls one’s ‘real life’ is a phantom of one’s own imagination.  This at least is what I see at moments of insight: 
but it’s hard to remember it all the time.”


I've been praying that I would use my time wisely, 
while holding my schedule with open hands ready for whatever God brings in my day.



Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Elijah and his daddy....

I remember thinking my dad was the strongest man alive when I was little. I thought he knew everything, could fix anything, and was pretty much better than any dad out there.  I went through a stage where those notions went away for awhile, but then they came back. Even though I know he's not the strongest man alive, I really can't imagine anything he can't do. I know he doesn't know everything, but it seems like he does. And I know there isn't a better dad for me out there. It's an innate God given love that always draws me to him no matter what.


Now being a parent it's so fun to see the love my children have for their dad. Elijah lights up whenever Caleb is around. His love for his dad is simple and genuine. It goes as deep as any feeling this little three year old has.  Frequently when something is broken Elijah tells me, don't worry mom, dad can fix broke. Elijah thinks Caleb is the strongest, smartest, funniest, best dad around. We talk about him all day while he's at work and the best part of Elijah's day is when he comes home. He says his daddy is his best daddy.


My prayer is this love and respect will grow and mature. As Elijah gets older he'll see that his dad isn't perfect, but I hope that he'll see a man that loves the Lord with all his heart, continually sacrifices for his family, works hard to provide, and loves his us deeply. Even though he can't fix everything or is the strongest man alive I hope Elijah sees something better.



Sunday, January 1, 2012

Looking back


As the year comes to a close it's hard not to think back on the last 364 days. I like taking time to remember the year and the lessons learned. This year, like every year brought us many unexpected things. It's been full. It's been hard. It's been blessed.

Last January Caleb and I were just starting our five months apart as he took on a new job. Those where such hard months, but like most trials the Lord used it to show me many things. 
I grew in my dependance on Christ alone.
My love for Caleb grew deeper.
I saw God's faithfullness again in providing work when we needed it.
I had some special time with Caleb's parents that I cherish even more now that we're not living close.






I made two new friends and got to know another one lots better.
God blessed me so much by bringing these girls into my life at just the right time. 




Enjoyed a beautiful Spring.
Truly amazed at God's creation. 
It always puts me in awe.


Took Elijah to Disneyland with the Talcott's to celebrate Davy's birthday. It was the best trip.
Thankful for these little blessings in our life.


Celebrated Vanessa's first birthday.
Incredibly thankful that she's strong and healthy.
Reminded of God's faithfulness again.




Celebrated Easter in Alabama.


Was able to reconnect with good friends in Georgia.


Paid off school debt.
Saw God as our provider.

 The job finally ended and Caleb came home.
 I got sick. 
Big bummer. Dealt with mono and other nasty stuff.
Was again reminded of the precious gift of good health. 
Saw Caleb's sacrificial love as he cared for me, the kids and the house. 
Prayer life grew.

My sister got Married.

Found out I was expecting.
The miracle of new life always amazes me.

Traveled to Portland for a cousins wedding.

Caleb and I started looking at the possibility of moving. Grew in my respect and love for Caleb even more as we prayed together for the Lord to lead our family.

Celebrated four years of being married to my best friend.

Found out there were complications with the pregnancy. 
Struggled trusting God and his plan.
Reminded of his faithfullness. 
Learning to take things moment by moment and lay all my burdens before the Lord.


Read a lot of books.

Caleb took a job in Boise. 
in three weeks time we moved our family. So hard saying good-bye to loved ones.

Felt at home way quicker than I imaged. 
Life got quiet.
Missed everyone in California, but excited to use this time to grow in my relationship with the Lord and my family.
Lots of time spent enjoying my little ones. 
Watched Elijah grow into a little boy and Nay's personality come alive.
Amazed at their new abilities.



Found out we were having a girl.


Welcomed our new niece Kahlan to the family.

Enjoyed our first fall with leaves.


Traveled to California for Thanksgiving. 
Loved our time so much.


Came home and geared up for Christmas. 
Really enjoying living near family.


Celebrated Elijah's third birthday. 
The last three years have gone by way to fast. 
Our lives are incredibly blessed by this sweet boy.

Got our first Christmas tree.

Spent a wonderful Christmas with family.

Looking forward to 2012.
Happy New Year.

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