Tuesday, May 31, 2011

a trip to the library

Today, I walked across the street with Elijah and Vanessa to our library. Having a library so close is one of my favorite things about where we live. The children are a little young to really take advantage of it, but we still enjoy going. They have reading time and baskets of stuffed animals the kids play with while I'm picking out books. I could walk through the aisle's for hours. I always pick out more books than I can finish in three weeks. Today, right before we walked out two books caught Elijah's eye and he checked out his own books for the first time.

I have a slight obsession with books, especially children's books. I started filling the kid's bookshelf before Elijah was born and I can hardly walk through the children's section in Barnes and Noble without adding to it. 

Naturally, this love of reading passed down to the kids and Elijah loves to sit in his chair reading to whoever will listen, his stuffed animals or Nay. 

I love the way books smell. I love the memories they bring back. I love the people you meet. I love the worlds you experience. I love the way reading evokes the imagination. 

I dream one day we'll have our own library. Now, our bookshelves are over flowing and our parents are storing boxes of books until we move to a place that can hold them all.

I've started my summer reading list and hope that I make the time to finish it. Since having children I've found my time is not my own and pleasure reading doesn't happen as much. 
Some of these books are ones I continually read, some I've been trying to finish for awhile, and some I've always wanted to read. I'll let you know how it goes. And if you have any good suggestions I'd love to hear.

Monday, May 30, 2011

happy weekend...

We've had a busy week with lots of friends and family in town for my sisters wedding, but it was so fun...and now we have one more boy in the family. 

We spent lots of time in the pool...

 absolutely loved having aunt abigail to play with...

loved watching Becky get hitched...

 and today...we're recovering....just laying around in bed enjoying each other.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


Caleb is so affectionate. He loves to hold my hand while he's driving, have my head rest in his lap when we watch a movie, and kiss me in public just to embarrass me. When our heads hit the pillow though it's a different story. We both like our space and can't sleep cuddling. But last night was different. I curled up next him and draped my arm over his chest. As he fell asleep I sat their feeling his heart beating. I was consumed with gratefulness. I am so lucky that he chose me.

Caleb, thank you for being patient with me as we've dealt with my health. Thank you for playing with the children and letting me rest. Thank you for praying with me as we waited for test results. No one can handle all my crazy like you. You calm me the instant I feel your arms around me. I love how hard we laugh together. There is no one I'd rather spend time with. Being married to you is one of my greatest blessings.

Sunday, May 22, 2011


One of our greatest blessing...
Yiayia and 


some of the children's happiest moments are in their arms. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Never want to forget.....Elijah edition.

Laying in the hospital bed with Elijah on my chest. I couldn't believe he was here. I stared at him in unbelief soaking up every inch of him. I was told over and over to enjoy it because it goes by way too fast. I was resolved to love it all even sleepless nights and dirty diapers. 

Elijah and I were inseparable. I broke the rules and rocked him to bed every night and let him sleep on my chest for naps. When we visited grandparents or aunts and uncles and they held him I would stand across the room and miss feeling him in my arms. 

 Even though I didn't take the time for granted I look at pictures of him so small and can't believe how fast it's going. Sometimes I don't even recognize that little baby.

I'm thankful for all the reminders I have of him though...his baby book, pictures, and even our blog. So here are just a couple things I never want to forget....

I never want to forget the way you feel in my arms when you sleep. Or when dada would try and take you from me I would beg for just a couple more minutes even though I'd held you all day. Or how when you hear the sound of dada unlocking the door you get a huge smile on your face and run and hide so he'll come find you.

I never want to forget your pudgy feet...

and the way you give me big slobbery kisses.

Or how it takes you forever to wake up in the morning and you just want to cuddle.

I like that you think the only way to wear a hat is backwards...

and that you wear your rainboots no matter what the weather.

As much as I never wanted you to grow up I couldn't wait to hear you say I love you. Now, you won't stop talking....I love how you call your pacifier, your bite, syrup, dip dip, your feet, shoes and the way you add "too" to everything you say....like i love you too mommy (even when you say it first) and i need mommy too.

It melts my heart when you call Vanessa "my nay nay."

I love that you ask to skype your cousins cause you miss them.

I was scared to give you your first hair cut cause I didn't want to loose your curls, but I soon learned that they only come back curlier. 

You are such a happy boy and are so easy to please, but certain things right now make you a little extra happy, like, puzzles...

and books.

And I'll never forget the way you loved Nay Nay when you met her for the first time. 

Sunday, May 15, 2011

aww life...

So many thoughts are swirling around my head as I sit here this evening.  Caleb and Elijah ran to Target for me and I've just finished rocking Vanessa and putting her to bed. The house is quite and I can only hear the clocks ticking and my fingers on the keyboard. I love these rare moments to soak up the silence and reflect on things I've learned over the last week and prepare for the craziness that lies ahead. 

We're in full blown wedding mode here as my little sister's big day is two weeks away and my family comes into town in just a week. I had big plans of cleaning the house, meal planning, grocery shopping, getting last minute wedding details done...and keeping up with my two babies. 

But things are being rearranged a little. I've been feeling pretty bad lately, exhausted, headaches, ear aches, overly emotional, can't think clearly and the list goes on. I finally went to the doctor and got some blood work done and found out I have a hypothyroid, double ear infection, sinus infection, and mono. 

As I was talking to my mom tonight and she asked me how I was doing I told her I was doing okay, but the timing of this is horrible. I don't have time to be sick. Which she replied, when do you ever have the time? 

I'm the kind of person who likes to do it all and not ask for help. And yet, as I look over the last year and half the Lord has put me in mulitple situations where I can't. I am forced to rely on his strength and the help of friends and family. It's in these moments that I see that he is always my strength and I do nothing without him, but so often I try and take the credit for doing it on my own. 

It's humbling to ask for help. It's humbling being unable to do the daily tasks of a stay at home mom. It's humbling to have Caleb work so hard all day and then come home and complete all the things I couldn't do. But it also makes me so grateful. Grateful that I serve a God who cares about my health and holds me in his hands. Grateful that I married Caleb. He is such a servant and gladly takes care of the kids and me without complaining. Grateful that God promises never to give me more than I can handle. 

Caleb and I spent the weekend on the coast just the two of us. It was mostly spent in bed watching movies because of how I was feeling, but we did venture out a little. We took a walk to the beach and sat on a bench watching the ocean. I looked over and on the bench next to us my favorite verse...

This is exactly where I need to be...still and trusting in God. 

Monday, May 9, 2011


Yesterday I was spoiled...I got a break from all the mundane and just got to enjoy my family. I told Caleb I wanted to stay in. So my mama's day (as elijah calls it) was complete with...

a yummy breakfast...

handmade love notes...


time with my babies...

this camera bag coming in the mail...yay!

hot tea...

and a good book...

and lots of kisses.

I'm so thankful for my family.

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