Friday, October 29, 2010

It's a Process.

I just wanted to let you all know I have two of the most beautiful, happy children in the whole wide world. Seriously. 

But, that doesn't mean Elijah can't be a stinker. I'm sure V will have her moments too, I have yet to see it though.

I love being a mom almost as much as I love being Caleb's wife. It's one of he most rewarding and challenging jobs out there. And God is always using it in my life to humble me and draw me closer to Him.

I love the lessons it teaches me.

Like today.

I told Elijah not to touch something. I wasn't doing it to be mean, I did it because it could hurt him. He touched it. There was a consequence. I told him I loved him, but don't touch it again. He walked over and stood as close to it as possible and just stared. I couldn't help thinking....why are you putting yourself in such a hard place of temptation? Then it hit me. I do that all the time with God. 

I know what I'm supposed to do and yet at times I get as close to the edge as possible and then wonder why it's so hard to obey. 

I see the whole picture. Elijah sees a glimpse. I often tell him to do something because I know it's the best way. He loves to do it his way though. Sound familiar? 

I tell Elijah to do something, like, "take a bite." He decides to fight me on it and I think, wouldn't it be so much easier if you would just take the bite? 

Again, humbled. Wouldn't it be so much easier if I ALWAYS trusted God? Hasn't He ALWAYS been faithful? Wouldn't it be easier if I always obeyed the first time?

The funny thing is when Elijah does obey the first time, life is easy. It's fun. It's in his best interest. 

You want to know what else is funny. When I obey God the first time life is much easier for me too.

Wow, lessons learned from a 1 1/2 year old. I know this sounds elementary. I know it's lessons many of us have heard and learned before, but it seems sometimes I need to be taught them over again. It's a process, right?

The best part about it is, I know how much I love Elijah and Vanessa. I know my love doesn't change depending on if they're good or bad. I know the joy they bring to my life. God says I'm his child and that's how He LOVES me. It's hard for me to comprehend that he loves me that much and even more. And I bring Him JOY.  Pretty incredible.


Stephen and Tiffany Seston said...

You are precious. My mama always said she definitely grew the most in her relationship with Christ when she had kids! I can understand why now!!!

Phil and Bri said...

Wow, great parallels!!! Thank you for sharing your wisdom. :)

Emma Leigh Harasick said...

Blown away by how God is working in your life, Jess. I'm tucking this post away and remembering it. Thank you :-)

Love you!

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