Monday, March 29, 2010

Bring on the Pink...


With all the complications of the pregnancy my mind has been filled with doing everything I can to keep her healthy. I have barely thought about all the fun stuff that comes with having a baby. When I was pregnant with Elijah I loved looking at little boy clothes, setting up his crib, and imagining every moment with him. Now, I find myself just making "to do" lists, in case we have to go to the hospital at a moments notice.

But my mother in law recently finished making sweet Vanessa's baby blanket and it got me so excited to have a little girl! She makes beautiful baby blankets for all the grand babies and I was so excited when we picked out her fabric. It turned out better than I imagined. She is an incredible seamstress and I love how she put the blanket together. She made a big and small one and I know like all the other kids before this will soon become her favorite blanket. Elijah loves cuddling up in his at night and I can't wait to cuddle her up in hers.

The small one...
The big one...the pictures do not do it justice.


In other pregnancy news...I went to the doctor today. Vanessa's grow has slowed. This of course is not what we wanted to hear, but are trusting the Lord through it all. I'm going to have to go to the doctor once a week, a specialist once a week, and go to the hospital twice a week for a non-stress test. We are really learning to take things one day at a time. We appreciate your prayers so much. It's a huge encouragement knowing that fellow believers are praying and we've really seen God's hand in all of this. I love knowing that even though we don't know what to expect there are no surprises to God. He has known about all this since before the beginning of time.

Monday, March 15, 2010

A Praise


After a much anticipated two weeks my doctors appointment finally came. My good friend, Brooke, took Elijah and Caleb met me at the doctors office for the ultra sound. I'm so grateful for everyone who was praying for us and I know God really steadied my nerves. Doctor Frields started doing the measurements and right away told us things were looking good. Her heart was beating strong and he said she was moving a lot! Praise the Lord. All her measurements went up, which we're so thankful for. She's still very small though, especially her abdomen. He's going to keep me on complete bed rest. Of course I wanted to hear that I could get up and have a normal rest of the pregnancy, but this is much better news than being hospitalized or having to deliver now. There is still the chance of delivering early. I go back in another two weeks and he's going to be monitoring her measurements closely.

Caleb and I have seen God carry us through each moment of this whole experience. He's given us faith to trust in His plan for us and little Vanessa, and such encouragement from fellow believers. We're really just taking things one day at a time.

Bed rest is still challenging for me and I can't imagine two and a half full months of it, but like everything else I know I'll have the grace to get through each day. We're really amazed at how gracious people have been to babysit and bring meals. But we're at a place where we're going to hire some help to come in and fill the gaps. If you know of someone who needs a job for a couple months please let us know. We're looking for someone to come to our house and just help out doing all the things I can't. Our friend Brooke is lining up meals for awhile so they wouldn't need to worry about that. Mostly, we just need help with Elijah and a little bit of house work. If you know of someone have them email me. busselljn@gmail.com. Thanks so much!!

Keep praying for us.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Lessons From Bed.


How many times do we say or think, "I wish I had more time." or, "I'm so tired, I just want to sleep in." I've thought these things so many times in my life I can't even try counting them. I've especially wanted more rest since Elijah was born. What a joy he is to me, but I did not know that having a baby meant literally no sleep.

Well, I have it. I have all the time in the world and could sleep all day if I wanted. So, what do I want to do with all this time on my hands? GET OUT OF BED! I just want to go back to no sleep and lots of work where I don't get it all done in a day. I think God is trying to teach me that lesson that Paul learned, something about being content in all situations. Maybe if I'd hurry up and learn it God would take me out of this trial.

With the help of friends and family, I've been able to stay off my feet more. They've taken Elijah at times and people have brought meals this whole week! We are so thankful. But, last night things changed. I started having lots of contractions. Something we were really trying to avoid! I called the nurse and she told me to lay down drink lots of water and see if they stopped. That's what I did. And they did stop...for a little while. When they started back up again I called the nurse again and she said time to go to the hospital. To make a long story short, my sister took Elijah for the night, we spent four hours in the hospital, and found out I was having way more contractions then I thought I was. Praise the Lord, I wasn't going in to labor, but now I have strict instructions to stay completely in bed until they stop...which so far hasn't happened.

To be totally honest with all of you, it's really hard to stay in bed. I struggle with having to ask for help and watching my house get dirtier and dirtier. I get lonely laying here all day. I hate not being able to take care of my family. I'm no longer allowed to hold Elijah and it makes me cry when he wants me and I can't help him. I have too much time to think now, my mind runs wild with all the "what if" scenarios. What if she comes early and we're in the NICU for months? What if I'm on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy? Will she have lots of complications after she's born? How will we do it all? It's overwhelming, but then I catch myself...

I have something greater than all this. I know the Creator of the Universe and He loves me and my family. I'm taking a look at all the struggles this trial is bringing out in me and see that these are weaknesses that God is wanting to sanctify me in. I need to be humble and accept help graciously. I need to take my thoughts captive. I need to cast my cares on the Lord and trust His timing. I need to quit thinking that the only way I glorify the Lord is by accomplishing my to do list and glorify Him in my attitude. This is only the beginning of the things I'm seeing that need to change in my life and it looks like I have some time to work on them. We're going to take things one day at a time, (sometimes one hour at a time) and I'm going to let the Lord work on my heart. I've also decided that this is the perfect opportunity to use my time wisely. There are letters to be written, books to be read, and people to pray for. I'm going to keep myself busy.

Last night we got to hear Vanessa's heart beating. At first they said it was faint and she wasn't moving much, but by the end of the night her heart beat got stronger!! What a praise. I'm anxiously awaiting Monday's doctor's appointment to see if she's grown. I'll keep you updated as we know things. We still covet your prayers. And if your in the neighborhood feel free to stop by, I'll be here.


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Back On My Back...


Well, I went to the doctor today. I wasn't sure what to expect. I haven't gained as much weight as i should have by this point, but my stomach was growing and I'm feeling little Vanessa move. I was excited to see her again and hear how she was growing. Unfortunately, when the doctor did the ultra sound he saw that she's not growing as much as she should be. He's put me back on bed rest and I go in two weeks to see if rest and a high protein diet has helped at all. If she hasn't we're probably going to go to a specialist and possibly deliver early.

I would love your prayers...We know that today was no surprise to God and He is knitting her together, but it's still hard knowing she's not as healthy as she should be. Please pray that we continually trust in our Savior and take all our anxious thoughts to Him. Also, that Vanessa would grow and we wouldn't have to deliver early. Elijah has also been sick these last couple weeks, so if you could pray for his health we'd really appreciate it. Friends have offered to help out, but most of them have children and I don't want him getting their children sick. Thank you. I'll keep you updated as we know things.


Monday, March 1, 2010

A Weekend Away.

Caleb and I went to Carmel with friends this weekend. It was beautiful there and we had such a relaxing time.
We stayed at our friends mom's house right on the water. As you can see her house is all windows so we got to stare at the ocean all weekend.
Our view.
Caleb's parents watched Elijah for us while we were away. We missed him so much!! When we got back to pick him up the orchards around Caleb's house were so beautiful we had to go walk around in them. All the trees were in bloom and it was so green. I love it there.
Glad to be together again...but incredibly thankful for Papa and Yiayia and their willingness to watch Elijah. He loves them SO MUCH! We are blessed to have parents that love our children and enjoy being around them.
Caleb's house...
In the last week Elijah has turned into a walker. He never wants to crawl anywhere anymore. I can't believe he's growing up so fast.
This picture is for you Sammon's family!

Elijah playing in the dirt....Daddy and Yiayia covered him up in it.




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